I was reading results of a study on folks put through ex-gay therapy, and it reminded me of this interesting tidbit from my past.
Around my 22nd or 23rd year, I developed a theory about my “homosexual tendencies” and nail biting. See, I had been biting my nails for as long as I could remember, and I had also been attracted to men since I recognized attraction. In my Christian upbringing, addictions were often treated as a spiritual thing. Older men, first-generation Christians*, would often give testimony that when they got saved their drinking/drug/gamboling addictions would immediately disappear. Many other things, when done in excess, were also considered addictions, including nail biting, video gaming, and looking at pornography. Continue reading
Today I’m going to share four short stories that I’ve written. The come randomly to me in different circumstances, usually from something I’ve read or a comment a friend has made. I would call them more Scenes than Stories, actually, but here they are. Hope you like them. Continue reading
I got this idea from my friend Penny. You can read her post here: Colors – Old Skool.
I tend to think in colors a lot. Sometimes I describe my feelings in colors rather than with adjectives. I assign people different colors or auras in my mind. When sending energy to people, it’s always in colors.
The funny part? I’m red-green colorblind!
The questions below are from Kickin’ It Old Skool. Continue reading
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Happy National Coming Out Day!
This is the third post in my Coming Out series.
Part I | Part II | Part III
Today is the 25th anniversary of
National Coming Out Day!
(Read more here.) I am proud to be an out gay man. As part of my Coming Out series, today I am going to list some of the positives and some of the negatives I’ve faced since my decision to come out of the closet. Continue reading
Shopping for my first wig!
Hi! You may already know a bit about me (see: every preceding post, also About Me). That’s Sean-Allen you’ve met. But there is someone else I’d like you to meet: Autumn Gold.
I don’t remember when I actually decided I wanted to do drag. It was certainly in the last year and a half, after I came out. I remember discovering RuPaul’s Drag Race and being immediately enthralled. I have since watched seasons 2-5 of RPDR, and all three seasons of RuPaul’s Drag U. Continue reading
This is the second post in my Coming Out series.
Part I | Part II | Part III
“I can’t. I can’t do this. I just can’t even!”
These are the thoughts I have as I try to write my coming out story. I tried to explain last week why it’s difficult. But I underestimated myself. I was going to start my story last Friday, but I don’t even know what to say. It still hurts. And that’s really sad. It’s not my fault. Sometimes I have to remind myself that.
I ache. Literally. When I think about what I have to say, my body hurts inside. I want to cry. Sometimes I want to scream. And say naughty words. Like FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!! If you knew me, you’d understand how deeply I must hurt to say that. Continue reading